Terence has been gardening lately, digging up the backyard and re-sowing the lawn. Around the end part of garden there is a wood sleeper retaining wall which I was standing on when I remembered Kayleigh helping build it.
Originally the wood was part of a cubby house/fort that Terence was building for the kids, but we had to take it down. The wood that we were using become the retaining wall. Kayleigh helped her dad with moving all the wood into position. I remember her excitement in drilling guiding holes for the coaching bolts and then bashing them in. I remember her smile as it came together and helping her dad push all the soil behind them before helping her dad lay the Canturf that made the lawn and plant the Japanese Maples that went around the edge.
When Terence was re-doing the backyard, you could see that he was remembering those times by his body language - it's hard sometimes doing some thing because we miss her so much.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Mother's day
As I am celebrating Mother's day for the second time without Kayleigh, but for the first time with her new brother Kayl, it is hard not to feel slightly guilty for the sense of contentment I have at the moment. Although I miss Kayleigh alot, having Kayl has somewhat filled the hole left in my soul that losing Kayleigh created. Little Kayl cna never replace Kayleigh (of course) but it has started a new chapter in my life. The last almost two years I have felt a little lost and Kayl is making look forward to the future again. I still cry on occasion, missing my special girl, and there are moments in the days where I still feel her passing as if it was yesterday.
Mother's day - Kayleigh was my first baby, and so my first mother's day was because of her. She was only 5 months old at the time and I was given . . . . . .a food processor!!!!!! I actually wanted that machine, it was a Kenwood and it lasted me years and years. at the time is was a practical present as Kayleigh had just started on solids so I used to it make all of her baby food, from apples and pears to mulching up whatever Terence and I had for dinner (how many pork chops and veges were ground up in that thing I'll never know). As Kayleigh grew up, she wanted to make Mother's Day special. She always made a card and presented it to me with a cup of tea first thing in the morning, along with a huge hug and snuggle on the bed.
The very last mother's day I had with her we spent 2 hours at the Coffee Club in Tuggeranong just waiting for some pancakes (which were cold by the time we got them). Kayleigh spent alot of that time attempting to get the other kids to behave - they were getting restless, and playing on the car ride on thing that they had there. She was wearing her 'Stig' shirt and she was talking about her friends and the work she was doing in her wood work and sewing class. It's days like these that I miss her more than usual as it reminds me of the things she did to try and get a smile from me and make me happy.
Mother's day - Kayleigh was my first baby, and so my first mother's day was because of her. She was only 5 months old at the time and I was given . . . . . .a food processor!!!!!! I actually wanted that machine, it was a Kenwood and it lasted me years and years. at the time is was a practical present as Kayleigh had just started on solids so I used to it make all of her baby food, from apples and pears to mulching up whatever Terence and I had for dinner (how many pork chops and veges were ground up in that thing I'll never know). As Kayleigh grew up, she wanted to make Mother's Day special. She always made a card and presented it to me with a cup of tea first thing in the morning, along with a huge hug and snuggle on the bed.
The very last mother's day I had with her we spent 2 hours at the Coffee Club in Tuggeranong just waiting for some pancakes (which were cold by the time we got them). Kayleigh spent alot of that time attempting to get the other kids to behave - they were getting restless, and playing on the car ride on thing that they had there. She was wearing her 'Stig' shirt and she was talking about her friends and the work she was doing in her wood work and sewing class. It's days like these that I miss her more than usual as it reminds me of the things she did to try and get a smile from me and make me happy.
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| Mother's Day 2010 |
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Our mini vacuum cleaner
Kayleigh started crawling when she was about 7 months old. At this stage we were renting a house in Banks. Kayleigh had a habit of waking up quite early in the morning- around 6am and we all had to be up with her. It was this time that we did the majority of the cleaning/vacuuming/mopping of the floors. You may wonder why we didn't do it the night before - we did, but because of Kayleigh we always did it again the next morning.
Why???? because I would get up, change Kayleigh and feed her for the morning while her daddy had a shower, then put her on the floor where she would immediately crawl around. Now this child must have had eagle eyes, because every small tiny little piece of dirt or something, Kayleigh would find, pick up and put it straight into her mouth. Now to prevent her doing that, Terence and I would be crawling behind her, grabbing anything she picked up before it made it into her mouth, and quickly vacuuming the area she was in just in case there was more. Now image, two grown adults crawling around on their hands and knees, chasing a very fast little 7 month old who is determined to put anything and everything in her mouth.
Kayleigh was great as a vacuum, she managed to get under the heater, under the lounge suit and even in the window sills. We must have had the cleanest carpet and windows in Canberra, all because of our mini vacuum cleaner.
Why???? because I would get up, change Kayleigh and feed her for the morning while her daddy had a shower, then put her on the floor where she would immediately crawl around. Now this child must have had eagle eyes, because every small tiny little piece of dirt or something, Kayleigh would find, pick up and put it straight into her mouth. Now to prevent her doing that, Terence and I would be crawling behind her, grabbing anything she picked up before it made it into her mouth, and quickly vacuuming the area she was in just in case there was more. Now image, two grown adults crawling around on their hands and knees, chasing a very fast little 7 month old who is determined to put anything and everything in her mouth.
Kayleigh was great as a vacuum, she managed to get under the heater, under the lounge suit and even in the window sills. We must have had the cleanest carpet and windows in Canberra, all because of our mini vacuum cleaner.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Baby Kayleigh
I have to apologise for not writing anything for a while - but I have an excuse, Kayleigh just had a new baby brother - it was an exciting day, but also a sad day as little Kayl will never know his big sister. This has had me reflecting on what sort of baby Kayleigh was.
Kayleigh, on the whole, was quite a good baby, she suffered a little from colic, but nothing that kept us awake at night. as my first baby, and since I was only 19 at the time, were were pretty relaxed on the whole baby thing, and this made for a relaxed baby. Kayleigh had a room to herself (for the only time in her whole life). She started sleeping through the night at 12 weeks old on the dot. She had a big brown Kmart xmas teddy that played christmas carols and I used to sing her to sleep in her cot with them playing.
When she had her 6 month immunisation, they still did the polio immunisation as three drops in the mouth. I'm told they tasted horrible, which is probably why Kayleigh screwed up her face and spit it straight into the nurses eyes and mouth - quite funny at the time, but it meant she had to have more.
I can't help but compare Kayleigh to Kayl - I think we all compare our children in some way, but since Kayleigh is no longer here, it seems we may be doing it a little more than we previously did, just because we miss her so much. Having Kayl has brought a lot of memories to the surface.
Kayleigh, on the whole, was quite a good baby, she suffered a little from colic, but nothing that kept us awake at night. as my first baby, and since I was only 19 at the time, were were pretty relaxed on the whole baby thing, and this made for a relaxed baby. Kayleigh had a room to herself (for the only time in her whole life). She started sleeping through the night at 12 weeks old on the dot. She had a big brown Kmart xmas teddy that played christmas carols and I used to sing her to sleep in her cot with them playing.
When she had her 6 month immunisation, they still did the polio immunisation as three drops in the mouth. I'm told they tasted horrible, which is probably why Kayleigh screwed up her face and spit it straight into the nurses eyes and mouth - quite funny at the time, but it meant she had to have more.
I can't help but compare Kayleigh to Kayl - I think we all compare our children in some way, but since Kayleigh is no longer here, it seems we may be doing it a little more than we previously did, just because we miss her so much. Having Kayl has brought a lot of memories to the surface.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Wandering off at 2 and a half
This story Terence never knew, I didn't tell him when it happened, but I gues once he reads this he will know.
WE had just moved in to our current house, which means that Kayleigh was around 2 1/2 years old. I had woken up one morning and found we didn't have enough milk for breakfast. Terence and Natassja were still asleep, but Kayleigh was already up. It must have been Autumn because Kayleigh was only wearing her nappy and a pair of socks. I told Kayleigh to stay inside, play with her toys (or something) or go snuggle in with her Dad while I went to the local shops to get some milk for breakfast. Kayleigh seemed to understand and toddled off to the bedroom. I went down to the shop, grabbed the milk and went home. I put Kayleigh's breakfast together and went to get her. It was then that I realised that she wasn't in the house, so I went outside in the backyard and looked around (the backyard was a jungle of weeds and concrete at that stage) and realised that the back gate was slightly opened. I freaked, ran out the front and then a young boy (around 9 or 10) walked down the driveway with Kayleigh in tow. He told me she was down at the shops walking up and down the aisle looking for 'Mummy'. The shop owner (such a responsible adult!!) told the boy where we lived and to take her home. I thanked the boy and took Kayleigh inside, freaking out still.
I didn't pass Kayleigh on the way back from the shops (it's only two doors down), so she must not have realised I had come home and gone out the back gate after I was inside. I told Kayleigh never ever go out the front without mummy or Daddy. I still remember the panic I felt when I couldn't find her.
WE had just moved in to our current house, which means that Kayleigh was around 2 1/2 years old. I had woken up one morning and found we didn't have enough milk for breakfast. Terence and Natassja were still asleep, but Kayleigh was already up. It must have been Autumn because Kayleigh was only wearing her nappy and a pair of socks. I told Kayleigh to stay inside, play with her toys (or something) or go snuggle in with her Dad while I went to the local shops to get some milk for breakfast. Kayleigh seemed to understand and toddled off to the bedroom. I went down to the shop, grabbed the milk and went home. I put Kayleigh's breakfast together and went to get her. It was then that I realised that she wasn't in the house, so I went outside in the backyard and looked around (the backyard was a jungle of weeds and concrete at that stage) and realised that the back gate was slightly opened. I freaked, ran out the front and then a young boy (around 9 or 10) walked down the driveway with Kayleigh in tow. He told me she was down at the shops walking up and down the aisle looking for 'Mummy'. The shop owner (such a responsible adult!!) told the boy where we lived and to take her home. I thanked the boy and took Kayleigh inside, freaking out still.
I didn't pass Kayleigh on the way back from the shops (it's only two doors down), so she must not have realised I had come home and gone out the back gate after I was inside. I told Kayleigh never ever go out the front without mummy or Daddy. I still remember the panic I felt when I couldn't find her.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
10 things you might not have known
I was thinking about some things Kayleigh did that wouldn't make a whole post by themselves:
1. Kayleigh used to wake me up by shaking my hand. She didn't want to wake her dad so she would sneak into the room, kneel down on the floor and start shaking my hand until I woke up. I didn't realise until after she was gone that she was the only one who did it.
2. Kayleigh once gave herself a bald spot on the crown of her head. She said her head was really itchy and she scratched it until I noticed she had a bald spot bigger than a 50c piece. She wore her hair in a pony tail for 3 months straight after that.
3. Kayleigh went through 6 school bags in year 7 because she used to take EVERYTHING to school.
4. Kayleigh always insisted that we got strawberry plants for our vege patch each year, although I don't think we ever got any strawberries.
5. Kayleigh always wanted to help her dad out, no matter how messy or dirty the job was. Digging in the garden, playing with the cars, moving turf or building things, Kayleigh was always there to help.
6. Kayleigh never slept much. She was always the last to bed and the first awake. She always got up in the middle of the night, and sometimes even stayed up and didn't go back to bed.
7. Her favourite saying before she passed away (at least at home) was' Stop back chatting'.
8. Her sneakers, which she was cremated in, she called her bubblegum shoes - they were ASIACS that had blue and green stripes on them.
9. IF there was a perfect tomato in the vege patch, Kayleigh would eat it before anyone else saw it.
10. Kayleigh was scared of spiders, until she figured out that the vacuum cleaner was the best way to get rid of them. After that, she was never scared of spiders in the house.
1. Kayleigh used to wake me up by shaking my hand. She didn't want to wake her dad so she would sneak into the room, kneel down on the floor and start shaking my hand until I woke up. I didn't realise until after she was gone that she was the only one who did it.
2. Kayleigh once gave herself a bald spot on the crown of her head. She said her head was really itchy and she scratched it until I noticed she had a bald spot bigger than a 50c piece. She wore her hair in a pony tail for 3 months straight after that.
3. Kayleigh went through 6 school bags in year 7 because she used to take EVERYTHING to school.
4. Kayleigh always insisted that we got strawberry plants for our vege patch each year, although I don't think we ever got any strawberries.
5. Kayleigh always wanted to help her dad out, no matter how messy or dirty the job was. Digging in the garden, playing with the cars, moving turf or building things, Kayleigh was always there to help.
6. Kayleigh never slept much. She was always the last to bed and the first awake. She always got up in the middle of the night, and sometimes even stayed up and didn't go back to bed.
7. Her favourite saying before she passed away (at least at home) was' Stop back chatting'.
8. Her sneakers, which she was cremated in, she called her bubblegum shoes - they were ASIACS that had blue and green stripes on them.
9. IF there was a perfect tomato in the vege patch, Kayleigh would eat it before anyone else saw it.
10. Kayleigh was scared of spiders, until she figured out that the vacuum cleaner was the best way to get rid of them. After that, she was never scared of spiders in the house.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Bushwalking around Theodore
At one stage, Terence was walking up and down and around the hills around Theodore, and several times Kayleigh went with him. The most memorable (at least for Terence) was attempting to walk to Mt Rob Roy from our house (it's one of the big ones behind Banks). Terence unfortunately wasn't feeling the best, so really should have not gone. They set off, Kayleigh all excited as it was one of the first times she went with her Dad. They made it from our house, and probably 1/2 way up My Rob Roy, when I got a phone call. Terence was rather ill, and there was no way to get to them. Kayleigh pushed her dad to keep going, telling him it was OK and that he only had to go a little bit longer and they'd be back to civilisation. She kept him going for the 30 minutes it took to walk back. Terence said he was so relieved to see the power lines near the back of Theodore but was so proud of Kayleigh for keeping his spirits going.
Another time, we went up the hills directly behind Theodore. Terence, being Terence, decided we were all going up the steep side, not around the back were the hill wasn't so steep. This was a test for Terence's anxiety and at some stages Kayleigh practically dragged him up the hill, when she wasn't helping Kiara up. about half way up, Terence turned around and said that his anxiety was getting too much and Kayleigh told him that the top was only up there and he could do it. Then right up at the top (like a metre from it) Terence did the same. Kayleigh laughed her head off. 'Dad, you ARE at the top.' she said. She though it was really funny. We probably didn't climb the hills as much as she wanted. She loved the views from the top of the hills, you can see a long way.
Another time, we went up the hills directly behind Theodore. Terence, being Terence, decided we were all going up the steep side, not around the back were the hill wasn't so steep. This was a test for Terence's anxiety and at some stages Kayleigh practically dragged him up the hill, when she wasn't helping Kiara up. about half way up, Terence turned around and said that his anxiety was getting too much and Kayleigh told him that the top was only up there and he could do it. Then right up at the top (like a metre from it) Terence did the same. Kayleigh laughed her head off. 'Dad, you ARE at the top.' she said. She though it was really funny. We probably didn't climb the hills as much as she wanted. She loved the views from the top of the hills, you can see a long way.
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| Family pic at the top of the hills behind Theodore |
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